if you don’t follow your own nature, you will fail

do you keep seeking reassurance from others and trying to “hack” yourself into feeling better?

do you look at people you (think you) want to be like and follow them blindly?

have you forgotten your discernment where your trauma entered?

enlightenment doesn’t come through a leader or a teacher. it comes from understanding what is—which is what is within yourself—and not running from yourself.

as much as people nowadays love to tell you that “you are not a unique snowflake” and make it all political, there is a very obvious layer in which this is true. you are unique, and you’re incredibly special—if you still have a soul. there are lots of people who can’t boast about that.

what I am referring to here is selfhood: unique personal identity and self-awareness.

the problem is not being able to hold two opposing truths at once.

and they don’t even oppose each other so much—they are simply different viewpoints.

you can be unique, and so can others. there are things we share as a collective, and there are things that distinguish you from everyone else.

in this sense, it’s imperative to remember that everything must be questioned.

self-trust is knowing that you don’t know everything, and therefore you must always keep a window open for the natural breeze of life to come through—opening space for new experiences.

with internal self-awareness comes a steadiness, a grace. this grace is not of the intellect but of this exact conundrum: that you have a soul signature, yet you are part of something unknowable.

the mystery of life flows through you.

and if you don’t allow this mystery to touch you, you will become a slave to the mind. the mind is contracted—resistant to change and limited in its scope.

it’s only through allowing the flow of nature (the unknowable and unnameable) through us that we can achieve true freedom.

the mind grasps for concepts and rituals, and in the Tao they say, “Ritual is the husk of true faith, the beginning of confusion.”

you didn’t want to be stuck in a loop of old memories, repeating the same patterns over and over. that is a program.

your real will—your volition—lies in the paradox of holding these two together:

I am my own entity and have an identity that is unique, yet I am part of nature itself, and nature has a quality of mystery that must be embraced.

ironically, we do this through a conscious movement within—without rules or rituals or scriptures.

this is what I mean by knowing our own nature: we must accept our freedom with great responsibility.

we must see that our actions affect everything around us, and that if we don’t allow ourselves to be individuals, our path will be chosen for us.

there are defaults for everything. society loves to put you in a box. but you are a bridge and not an end. you have the eternal running through you.

and to join this eternal, you must lower your defenses and take off the labels that make you so comfortable—because they are the very things that keep you in the loop.

your unique nature has boundaries, but not constraints.
it has a spirit, but not a name.
it is constantly breathing and moving, yet still rooted in knowing.

to know this seeming paradox is to “know the greatness within you.”

if you try to become by using others as references, you will fail at being yourself.

your beingness needs no outside force to define it. it is defined from the inside out—by your own will and volition, by choosing which wolf to feed.

which one is it?
where will your inner pull take you?